December 2009
13 posts
where does the good go?
I can’t stop crying. I didn’t want to and I haven’t been but the picture fell out and it was all I could do. All I can do is cry and think about spring and try not to hate the entire world because nothing so wonderful should ever be able to turn into something so bad.
“you didn’t love her. you just didn’t want to be alone or maybe, maybe she was...”
– callie torres (via unsolvedmysteries)
Holy fuck. Ache. =(
Looking for Alaska
“I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch, to wrap my arms around her and sleep. Not fuck, like in those movies. Not even have sex. Just sleep together, in the most innocent sense of the phrase. But I lacked the courage and she had a boyfriend and I was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating.So I walked back to my room and...
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walkingthedog:
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It takes more than fucking someone to keep...
He fucking cheated on me. And not only THAT, but he lied to me about it numerous times thereafter. “Man, it burns so bad when I piss. I think I have a UTI. How do you even get those?” “Well, not trying to be a bitch or imply anything, but…women get them fairly often. Men, however, pretty much only get them from having sex…” “Oh, well that can’t be...
“But for you too there is an instinct either to back out of it or to go down to...”
– CGJung (via zakreiter)
this week has been such a mess of emotions. no...
One: Seeing my best friend today did amazing things for me. My chaotic schedule hardly allows for time with anyone especially during the hours that she is free. I had a wretched day at school but after just ten minutes of goofing around at her place I felt so, so much better. Two: I took a picture today for photos class that symbolizes my friends, but could have no people in it. I made you a...
My eyes are so puffy from all the crying and the lack of sleep. Awesome. Here goes another great day at school. I just wish it wasn’t so obvious, you know? That I’m a fucking wreck. It’d be nice if I could keep it to myself instead of having everyone notice and then act weird around me.
HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME!??!
Are the beating drums, celebration guns, the...
I walked outside of school and saw Channel 7 News, and Channel 2 News trucks parked alongside the student parking lot. Today was strange. A former student who graduated in 2006 died fighting in the war recently-yesterday, I believe- and I have no idea where the idea came from, but this morning it was announced in each classroom that any student who wanted to was urged to stand outside at 10:30...
yes, this is about -you- xo
I’m sorry I hurt you. I’m sorry you want me to believe something that I can’t. I was honest with you and that is all I ever can be. I worry about you and wish you didn’t do that one thing. That’s all. And I don’t know—no, I do know—if I will ever change my mind and be able to give someone the benefit of the doubt in that respect. I can’t. I...